On a night like this...

With a whirlwind hurry
I was made want to scurry
To be in such a rush
When I saw her I had to hush

Soft and gentle hair
I knew I couldn't dare
With all the work on my plate
It put me in a reserved state

Maybe one day I'll be ready
And my voice will continue steady
Even if my circumstance is pressed
I will seek her proving my best

And as it was on such a night
Only the future will be more bright

My Coffee

I drink my coffee
sip by sip
ounce by ounce
gulp by gulp
It warms my soul
breath by breath
beat by beat
It speeds my mind
thought by thought

The Federal States of America

I argue that this could be our new title as a nation. It is really disconcerting to see the Federal Reserve loaning literally Billions and Billions of dollars to large banks for the companies success and that it really is not being scrutinized. What does this mean? What power do we have when all these banks default to the Federal Reserve and the FR takes control of some of the most powerful corporations in the world. Here is my speculation, that the FR can see what is going to happen or at least has a good idea of the direction, and in a result to prevent any blame or skepticism is essentially "loaning to the poor" now because that way later on they can just say this is business we tried to help and they couldn't hold their own. It is a "we had to do it" type of situation. So what does a Country where the government has the control of all the money (now) and the govenrment has the control of the people's money as well (future)?

It really is a freaky realization that is apparently not on the radar...

I'm tired

I am so tired, my fingers are heavy. My eyes are itchy and my eyelids are heavy. Coffee is not motivating any form of movement. My legs are tired and the desire to move is nonexistent. My comfort level is desirable, however I would prefer to be parallel to the ground and with my eyes closed imagining the dream things that dance about in my mind. My leg falls asleep to tease me, that it has more freedom of choice and freedom of judgment than I do. I stretch to attempt to increase the bloodflow to some of the areas in my body. I reposition my body to facilitate attentiveness. In reality all I needed was more sleep, nothing special just sleep. My mind actually fools me in regular intervals that it is shutting down, causing me to shake my head to prevent it from shutting down, in a similar way that a computer shuts down. It's too early. It's too late.

A revisiting of topics

What if 0 is true, what if opposites could actually be equals?

Is there a star that will plug up a black hole?

Can negative 1 and positive 1 both be the same, even without an absolute value?

Is there an opposite to all things, is there a backwards time?

Can P is true, and P is false actually be a true statement?

P is true and false at the same time, let P become part of the entire world, for hypothetical situation purposes let P be omnipresent, with all questions present and P as a possible answer wouldn't P be true and false, so that's not a fair example you say because in regards to truth and falsity the question is in regards to whether something can be true and false at the same time for the single question or example. Approaching one example or question, Let's say P = p although we know that P and p are the same letter we also know that they are not the same size, the same shape, or the same capital status. So P is p, but P is not p. Too easily argued?

Lets go with the topic of temporary truth, P = 16 as per the number place in the alphabet written where A = 1 and B = 2 so this is true with the English which is what we are using for the example. What causes this to be a temporary truth is say that it becomes a convention to count from the last letter opposed to the first, P = 11 is the new definition and 16 is now obsolete, example is not fair because an example is for that instance in time and not to be compared to anything past or present after the fact of the example. However P = 16 is no longer truth, it is only past truth, P = 11 is new truth, with the past compared with the present the past becomes a shameful representation of truth.

How about ultimate truth, P = P lets say P is discovered to no longer exist thus -0- = P , however -0- /= P once again this is a present realization of a past difference to present.

And for now that's where I'm leaving it, take or leave it, or both...

You CAN'T be kidding me

The most ridiculous situations and circumstances I happen myself into. I must say for these 23 years of my life and the 16 of them I have been self aware + female aware, God has decided to cross his arms cranks back in a recliner pop popcorn kernels the size of supernova into a black hole bucket, and sip on his galactic smoothie, and laugh at the relationship statii I have weaved in and out of. I can't even muster the creativity to curse what may be prolonging the object of my longing.

There is no thing in this life that I have sought so much for myself more than understanding myself and my circumstances, and what to do with them. The new road I am on is different, and similar to places I have been before the things I am seeking for myself are good and will help my future prosperity but the distance from now till then is always such a confusing thing. I often wonder why it is that my life seems to be more development than action. We must however I have continually concluded both prepare and season ourselves to deal with all situations. We can do this by interaction but we must personally be ready to be shaped and be willing to move forward no matter the opposition, and I assure you there is a lot of opposition in our lives. Jesus lived a life with 90% being spent "training" or "preparing" whatever you may call it and that left him with that 10% which was the most effective and powerful time spent by any human ever, declaring the most amazing message to ever reach the ears of man. It only makes sense to follow such a system. Of course we are not all provided with such a great message to share are we? ACTUALLY we are, not all of us realize it, and not all of us want to believe it, and not all of us live our lives according to that glorious message that has so easily slipped our minds so many times.

On the serious side, I would like to once again remind you and myself, because I suppose we all need reminding from time to time, that I am planning on doing just that. But that doesn't mean do only one form of training for 90% of your life, that surely is NOT what Jesus did instead arrange and prioritize the things that will best allow you to accomplish the goals that have been given to you which of course we have all been given in unity to accomplish. Each of us has a different spin, and technique capable of communicating the same message.

Just like a good ol' fashion "till next time"

----More Later----
- Devin Jump