Thought's from his nefesh

Pyramid of squares of 2's

2010-11-04T11:44:00.000-07:00

2 squared = 4    OR        4

22 squared = 484       OR
(4) (8) (4)


222 squared = 49,284      OR
(-) (1--2)(-)(-)
(4)(8)(-)(8)(4)

2,222 squared = 4,937,284   OR
(-)(-)(1-—-6)(-)(-)(-)
(-)(1 2)(-)(1 2)(-)(-)
(4)(8)(-)(-)(-)(-)(-)(8)(4)


22,222 squared = 493,817,284    OR
(-)(-)(-)(2——-0)(-)(-)(-)(-)
(-)(-)(1 6)(-)(-)(1 6)(-)(-)(-)
(-)(1 2) (-)(-)(-) (1 2) (-)(-)
(4)(8)(-)(-)(-)(-)(-)(-)(-)(8)(4)



222,222 squared = 49,382,617,284   OR
(-)(-)(-)(-) (2—-4)(-)(-)(-)(-)(-)
(-)(-)(-) (2-0)(-)(2-0)(-)(-)(-)(-)
(-)(-) (1 6)(-)(-)(-)(1 6)(-)(-)(-)(-)
(-) (1 2) (-)(-)(-)(-) (1 2) (-)(-)(-)
(4)(8)(-)(-)(-)(-)(-)(-)(-)(-)(8)(4)

just like the pyramid/chiastic structure that appears in the process of squaring 1's

1 squared = 1
11 squared = 121
111 squared = 12321 ......

2's appear to have the same chiastic process however instead of sequential numbers they follow in fours...

four eight twelve sixteen twenty twenty-four twenty sixteen twelve eight four being the solution for 222,222 squared.

Math

2010-11-03T18:13:00.001-07:00

333,333 squared = 111,110,888,889
33,333 squared = 1,111,088,889
3,333 squared = 11,108,889
333 squared = 110,889
33 squared = 1089
3 squared = 09

This is something that makes math actually look and seem cool...

number of 3's to be squared minus 1 renders how many 1's and 8's appear in the solution separated by a 0 between the 1's and the 8's and a 9 at the end...

So... 3million 3's squared would be
999,999 1's and then one 0 and then 999,999 8's and then a 9

C'est l'heure - KEFIR !!!

2010-07-01T10:19:00.000-07:00

It's time,
here I go...

Ok so I have a kefir expirement underway...
I currently have the following
Milk Kefir - (Horizon Whole Milk - Organic however it IS UHT {ultra heat treated aka dead milk})
Converted grains to water kefir producing:
Apple Water Kefir (Sugar + Water 1st brew, and dried apple slices on 2nd brew) - I've sipped some it's very interesting ...
Thai Tea Kefir (Thai Tea + Sugar + Kefir grains 1st brew, Kefir grains removed for 2nd brew)
Finally I have a current brew of plain Sugar and water with the grains that begun this morning to see if I can reduce the staining from the thai tea, I'll add a flavor to this batch when it's in 2nd brew stage...
I am also converting additional grains currently in a (half milk + half water + sugar) batch {not to be consumed} once they have been in this mix for 24 hours I will remove and rinse gently with filtered water and add them to the other grains.

Water kefir does end up being cheaper I went through a half gallon of milk in 2 days...

And here is why ... my kefir grains are mutant... they grow at freakishly alarming rates... which means ... either they love me? or .. Horizon milk is full of bacteria that the kefir are thriving on ... They double in size every 2 days... NO JOKE.

I have eaten a palm full of kefir grains twice ... They just don't stop till they get enough ... and enough is never enough with these guys...

The conversion took place according to plan, and has produced CO2 and what I am detecting to be slight Alchy flavor... so that means it's working.

I have made all kinds of drinks, smoothies, and some secret recipe's from pancake's, to beef strogonoff... with my milk kefir.

It rules, and left alone on a milk farm... it would literally consume the cow whole... Kefir is very gentle squishy and cute... but I'm telling you it has a tough side... It has the ability to multiply and it does.. a lot... let a kefir grain roam free next to a cow ... I'm telling you the cow won't win.

Redemption

2010-05-12T10:33:00.000-07:00

I need to redeem my blogging habits. I have a desire to share with the world some ideas and ideas of ideas.

DIFFERENT... Response...

2010-04-17T18:59:00.001-07:00

2008 Honda Civic This car has a 5 year/60,000 mile - $4380 (graniteville)
2 messages

Devin Jump

Fri, Apr 16, 2010 at 4:06 PM

To: sale-25535-1686148781@craigslist.org

are there any current mechanical problems with this car? I'm interested.

http://columbia.craigslist.org/cto/1686148781.html

Brenda smith

Sat, Apr 17, 2010 at 8:39 PM

To: doubledoctordrj@gmail.com

Hi,

Thank you for being interested in buying my 2008 Honda Civic EX Coupe, 42,000 miles, Transmission: Automatic, VIN: 2HGFG12868H544851.
It is in EXCELLENT condition; the body and paint are great, no scratches and no dents; the interior is clean; it has never been involved in an accident; comes with all the documents needed for registration and clear title.
My final price on it is US $4,400. It is priced to sell fast !
My husband died one month ago and I decided to move closer to my parents(they are very old) in Canada and the car is here with me. As I am unable to travel in the near future and having no one to help me with the sale I decided to make this transaction through eBay. I believe this protects both buyer and seller and it's the right way to do this.
So don't get me wrong and don't take it personally but I would prefer to secure the deal through eBay. Also because the car will be shipped from Canada to US I prefer to work with a third party in order to keep the both of us safe in this deal. I will be assured you will buy the car and you will be assured that you will receive it! Basically the money will be sent to them and they will keep the money until you receive the car and only after you inspect and drive it they will forward the money to me.

If you have other questions feel free to email.
Thank you!
Brenda Smith

ONE response ...

2010-04-17T18:58:00.000-07:00

2008 Honda Accord EXL-V6 Silver - $4100 (columbia )
5 messages

Devin Jump

Fri, Apr 16, 2010 at 3:59 PM

To: sale-yydbs-1694260782@craigslist.org

has this car been wrecked or something? does it even have an engine ?

http://columbia.craigslist.org/cto/1694260782.html

Brenda smitth

Fri, Apr 16, 2010 at 5:19 PM

To: doubledoctordrj@gmail.com

Hi,

Thank you for being interested in buying my 2008 Honda Accord EXL-V6, 31,500 miles, Transmission: Automatic, VIN: 1HGCP36888A044990.
It is in EXCELLENT condition; the body and paint are great, no scratches and no dents; the interior is clean; it has never been involved in an accident; comes with all the documents needed for registration and clear title.
My final price on it is US $4,100. It is priced to sell fast !
My husband died one month ago and I decided to move closer to my parents(they are very old) in Canada and the car is here with me. As I am unable to travel in the near future and having no one to help me with the sale I decided to make this transaction through eBay. I believe this protects both buyer and seller and it's the right way to do this.
So don't get me wrong and don't take it personally but I would prefer to secure the deal through eBay. Also because the car will be shipped from Canada to US I prefer to work with a third party in order to keep the both of us safe in this deal. I will be assured you will buy the car and you will be assured that you will receive it! Basically the money will be sent to them and they will keep the money until you receive the car and only after you inspect and drive it they will forward the money to me.

If you have other questions feel free to email.
Thank you!
Brenda Smith

Devin Jump

Fri, Apr 16, 2010 at 5:57 PM

To: Brenda smitth

Looking to only deal locally, thank you though.

Brenda smitth

Fri, Apr 16, 2010 at 6:47 PM

To: doubledoctordrj@gmail.com

Hello again,
The car is still registered in US. If we reach an agreement, I am willing to take care of the shipping to your address as the vehicle is already at the shipping company in Quebec ready to go anywhere in the United States. Also the car has a clear title and it is free of any lien/loan.
The sale will be managed by eBay Vehicle Purchase Protection Program for our own protection as they act as a neutral third part.
eBay Vehicle Purchase Protection Program will keep the money until you inspect/drive the vehicle.

This is how the Vehicle Purchase Protection Program works:

1. I will contact eBay Vehicle Purchase Protection Program and give all the info about this deal.
2. They will email us the forms which are needed for our deal.
3. You will send the payment to eBay and they will notify me to ship the vehicle to your location.
4. After you will inspect/drive the vehicle and decide to keep it, eBay will forward me the funds and the deal is done.

Remember you have 3 days to test it. If by any reason the vehicle is not as described or if you find any problems with it I will pay for the returning fees. I'm sure it won't be the case because it's a state of art looking and working vehicle. I apologize if it seems like I'm pushing on this deal but I really want to be sure everything is clarified before any further steps.
If you are interested please let me know your shipping details(name and address) so I can open a transaction case.

Looking forward to hear from you!
Brenda

Devin Jump

Sat, Apr 17, 2010 at 5:09 PM

To: Brenda smitth

http://www.carbuyingtips.com/scams.htm#Scam10

what a journey.

2010-03-18T10:03:00.000-07:00

WEST COLUMBIA, SC, US	03/18/2010	6:35 A.M.	OUT FOR DELIVERY
	03/18/2010	6:20 A.M.	ARRIVAL SCAN
	03/18/2010	6:19 A.M.	DEPARTURE SCAN
	03/18/2010	5:03 A.M.	ARRIVAL SCAN
LOUISVILLE, KY, US	03/18/2010	3:53 A.M.	DEPARTURE SCAN
	03/18/2010	2:39 A.M.	IMPORT SCAN
	03/18/2010	1:11 A.M.	ARRIVAL SCAN
KOELN (COLOGNE), DE	03/17/2010	9:20 P.M.	DEPARTURE SCAN
FRANKFURT, DE	03/17/2010	3:40 P.M.	DEPARTURE SCAN
NEW DELHI, IN	03/17/2010	2:30 A.M.	DEPARTURE SCAN
DELHI, IN	03/16/2010	10:30 P.M.	DEPARTURE SCAN
	03/16/2010	9:44 P.M.	ORIGIN SCAN
IN	03/15/2010	12:27 P.M.	BILLING INFORMATION RECEIVED

Hilarious

2010-02-15T10:12:00.000-08:00

This is a conversation between myself and another individual:

Feb 7 2010
"its bo what time will Kate b home Taylor wants to know"

Feb 15 2010
hey roomies, i completely almost forgot about the sceg bill this month, it is $xxx.xx which = $xx.xx per person; im gna pay it now bc its due 2day (forwarded from Samson)

"I don't think its fair that I should pay any"

What are you talking about ?

"I have never lived there"

Is this bo?

"Bo brand"

"<"
"Who is this"

Bo this is Devin
Is this not Bo Kim

"This is bo brand"

umm where do u live?

"Sylvester"

U texted me first and said this is Bo so I thought u were my room mate with a new cell number

"Sorry"

How did u get my cell? U texted me on feb 7 2010 at 2:57 pm with "its bo what time will kate b home Taylor wants to know"

"No wonder I never got a response from my daughter's friends mom wrong number"

Lol ok well sorry and wow what a funny situation goodbye

Thank You God

2009-11-26T19:26:00.000-08:00

Thank you for the wonderful gifts you have given me this year, in greater friendship and in greater intimacy and true hope in life with my future wife.

Thoughts

2009-08-12T21:36:00.001-07:00

One can have the skill of mind over matter, but what happens when that person's mind is no longer enough to deal with the things at hand. When compensation has lost its power, when positive thinking has found itself smashed beneath someone's shoe, when meditation is interrupted by a hurricane of distraction, it is at this point mind can no longer control matter(s). What then does matter over mind look like?
Now is now, not tomorrow.
WYSIWYG - What You See Is What You Get.
Take one day at a time.
With adversity we can tolerate and accept the reality of the situation.
Forces someone to look more at the truth of what's going on rather than attending to derailed thinking patterns.

SIDE NOTE as I'm getting tired... if you move your hands over one space while typing you instantly code your words and... mp pmr lmped yjr foggrtrvr. pj smf O ;pbr S,smfs - no one knows the difference, oh and ... (you figure out the rest)

and then...

2009-08-10T15:52:00.000-07:00

Saturday August 8 at 4:00 pm I drove past death's door

I was driving on I-26 Eastbound near "malfunction junction" just above the city.

Four total lanes
Far left - Lane 1
next lane over - Lane 2
then - Lane 3
Far right lane - Lane 4

00:00:00
I was in the far left lane <200 feet ahead in lane 2 was a red SUV driving normally.
00:00:00
There was a silver car in lane 3 "neck and neck" with the red SUV.
00:00:02
The silver car unaware of it's surroundings proceeded to merge into the red SUV.
00:00:04
Instantly it became aware and swerved into lane 3 then to lane 4.
00:00:06
Compensating for running some people off the road slightly behind in lane 4 it proceeded to jeer left.
00:00:06
By this time the red SUV had proceeded to accelerate out of harms way.
00:00:06
I (Devin) was still proceeding at a rate of at least 60MPH in Lane 1.
00:00:08
Silver car had at this point made it into lanes 1 and 2 jeering right for a final time.
00:00:09
All car's behind this event had slowed down pulled over and or passed the swerving danger.
00:00:10
This is the final compensation the silver car made that cut it's destination short.
00:00:11
I Devin witnessed the angle and speed at which the car was proceeding towards the median (lane 1) proceeded with a glance that barely offered my neck movement into lane 2, with this quick judgment I was aware that I would not meet impact with the silver car within reasonable physics this world offers. At this point there was HIGH congestion of cars behind the abnormal flow disruption. I made my way into lane 2 with no further cause of disruption or other-automobile contact.
00:00:12
This is literally the moment of collision it was literally <08 seconds from beginning to end of the flow disruption (00:00:04 - 00:00:12). I was within touching distance from the back left corner of the silver car as I past it, enveloping upon itself colliding with an unmovable concrete median glass spraying, plastic flying and an unparalleled eerie sound of metal instantly changing form. I witnessed in less than a blink of an eye's time a million tiny details. My eyes naturally closed for sake of protection as one of a thousand thoughts went through my head "wouldn't it really stink if a piece of glass went in my eye even after I had safely avoided potential death of myself or another" by the time my eyes opened I had made it 5 feet past the wreckage and was looking back seeing again the deployed airbags, and carnage to a degree I've never seen through it's process.
00:00:15 - 00:00:20
At this point I regain cognition and am tending my rear view mirror I look to my left and ahead, and realize I had slowed down considerably enough that the closest cars ahead were about 350 feet away, and each moment I drove the cars behind me continued to stay in place some pulled over on the side of the road none passed the mess, all had been halted. I realized with several thought's ("wow I'm like a NASCAR driver" "I made it out alive" "God you are so good" "Why me" "Thank you God" "I wonder if I'm going to get PTSD" "What could have happened" "Man that really would have messed up my day" "How selfish to think such a thing" "Lord God protect whoever just did that, do not serve them with the consequences of their unawareness if for no other reason than my asking and guilty selfishness" "Thank you for caring enough about me even when I seemingly overlook care for others")
00:00:20 - 03:00:00
I spend the next 3 hours filtering through the fears, anxieties, and pain of witnessing such a tragic sight, worries of PTSD secretly planting itself inside of me, or some anxiety or phobia related disorder hiding it's ways into the dark corner's of my mind. With time and process the anxiety subsides.
03:00:00 - 51:41:00
This brings it to the now, I have driven 3 separate occasions on the highway and otherwise, experiencing heightened anxiety and awareness of my surroundings, each occasion involved slight overreaction to subtle movements vehicles within close proximity made. I am and was aware of these over reactions causing fear within, and subdue this with rational thinking. Driving is dangerous, there is no promise, I am responsible for myself and how I respond and react to any occurrence of flow disruption, and more than anything God is in control of everything.

Thanks for reading, I recognize it could be worse if I were the man in the silver car, and also realize that this is over thinking an incident, but it's my way of processing. I searched all possible databases, and found no record of the wreck, all related records involved those who passed away, I believe due to this, the person in the silver car is alive and no one was seriously injured.

-Devin

and...

2009-08-06T14:11:00.000-07:00

And...

And... Then...

And... Then... He Wrote...

These are the words that I share with you after quite a spell of business and excitement in life, prayers answered, dreams come true, and dreadful nightmares come to pass...

The past couple months have been exciting, like WHoA...

I've been pursuing changes in my life, psychological, developmental, habitual, and greatest of all spiritual.

The iron curtain separating hope for a lifestyle of spiritual pursuit has fallen, crushed, and melted.

Complacency is the wicked enemy's tool for all Christian's, our pragmatic mind prevents our heart from continuing to trust in God, and therefore we sink into thoughts that fulfilling the will of God is for dreamer's and biblical fantastical characters...

We somehow fool ourselves and each other into believing that we can't be Christian, confounding each and every testimony and example God has given His people through all time...

I am GOING to finish this and continue these thoughts on the brink of tomorrows sundown.

Makes me want to vomit

2009-03-19T21:50:00.000-07:00

10 things that make you want to throw up, any 10 not the top just list what comes to mind...

- Underdressed underage girls
- Overly self absorbed oblivious people
- 2 specific odors
- People that have fat that an adult could crawl inside.
- Tramp stamps
- 3rd party personal misattributions
- False accusal
- Social exclusion (out of spite)
- Stereotype fulfillment
- People that love animals more than humans

On a night like this...

2008-12-09T19:52:00.000-08:00

With a whirlwind hurry
I was made want to scurry
To be in such a rush
When I saw her I had to hush

Soft and gentle hair
I knew I couldn't dare
With all the work on my plate
It put me in a reserved state

Maybe one day I'll be ready
And my voice will continue steady
Even if my circumstance is pressed
I will seek her proving my best

And as it was on such a night
Only the future will be more bright

My Coffee

2008-12-02T15:36:00.000-08:00

I drink my coffee
sip by sip
ounce by ounce
gulp by gulp
It warms my soul
breath by breath
beat by beat
It speeds my mind
thought by thought

The Federal States of America

2008-09-17T07:20:00.000-07:00

I argue that this could be our new title as a nation. It is really disconcerting to see the Federal Reserve loaning literally Billions and Billions of dollars to large banks for the companies success and that it really is not being scrutinized. What does this mean? What power do we have when all these banks default to the Federal Reserve and the FR takes control of some of the most powerful corporations in the world. Here is my speculation, that the FR can see what is going to happen or at least has a good idea of the direction, and in a result to prevent any blame or skepticism is essentially "loaning to the poor" now because that way later on they can just say this is business we tried to help and they couldn't hold their own. It is a "we had to do it" type of situation. So what does a Country where the government has the control of all the money (now) and the govenrment has the control of the people's money as well (future)?

It really is a freaky realization that is apparently not on the radar...

I'm tired

2008-09-16T05:37:00.000-07:00

I am so tired, my fingers are heavy. My eyes are itchy and my eyelids are heavy. Coffee is not motivating any form of movement. My legs are tired and the desire to move is nonexistent. My comfort level is desirable, however I would prefer to be parallel to the ground and with my eyes closed imagining the dream things that dance about in my mind. My leg falls asleep to tease me, that it has more freedom of choice and freedom of judgment than I do. I stretch to attempt to increase the bloodflow to some of the areas in my body. I reposition my body to facilitate attentiveness. In reality all I needed was more sleep, nothing special just sleep. My mind actually fools me in regular intervals that it is shutting down, causing me to shake my head to prevent it from shutting down, in a similar way that a computer shuts down. It's too early. It's too late.

A revisiting of topics

2008-09-02T06:06:00.000-07:00

What if 0 is true, what if opposites could actually be equals?

Is there a star that will plug up a black hole?

Can negative 1 and positive 1 both be the same, even without an absolute value?

Is there an opposite to all things, is there a backwards time?

Can P is true, and P is false actually be a true statement?

P is true and false at the same time, let P become part of the entire world, for hypothetical situation purposes let P be omnipresent, with all questions present and P as a possible answer wouldn't P be true and false, so that's not a fair example you say because in regards to truth and falsity the question is in regards to whether something can be true and false at the same time for the single question or example. Approaching one example or question, Let's say P = p although we know that P and p are the same letter we also know that they are not the same size, the same shape, or the same capital status. So P is p, but P is not p. Too easily argued?

Lets go with the topic of temporary truth, P = 16 as per the number place in the alphabet written where A = 1 and B = 2 so this is true with the English which is what we are using for the example. What causes this to be a temporary truth is say that it becomes a convention to count from the last letter opposed to the first, P = 11 is the new definition and 16 is now obsolete, example is not fair because an example is for that instance in time and not to be compared to anything past or present after the fact of the example. However P = 16 is no longer truth, it is only past truth, P = 11 is new truth, with the past compared with the present the past becomes a shameful representation of truth.

How about ultimate truth, P = P lets say P is discovered to no longer exist thus -0- = P , however -0- /= P once again this is a present realization of a past difference to present.

And for now that's where I'm leaving it, take or leave it, or both...

You CAN'T be kidding me

2008-03-28T22:42:00.000-07:00

The most ridiculous situations and circumstances I happen myself into. I must say for these 23 years of my life and the 16 of them I have been self aware + female aware, God has decided to cross his arms cranks back in a recliner pop popcorn kernels the size of supernova into a black hole bucket, and sip on his galactic smoothie, and laugh at the relationship statii I have weaved in and out of. I can't even muster the creativity to curse what may be prolonging the object of my longing.

2008-01-07T23:00:00.000-08:00

There is no thing in this life that I have sought so much for myself more than understanding myself and my circumstances, and what to do with them. The new road I am on is different, and similar to places I have been before the things I am seeking for myself are good and will help my future prosperity but the distance from now till then is always such a confusing thing. I often wonder why it is that my life seems to be more development than action. We must however I have continually concluded both prepare and season ourselves to deal with all situations. We can do this by interaction but we must personally be ready to be shaped and be willing to move forward no matter the opposition, and I assure you there is a lot of opposition in our lives. Jesus lived a life with 90% being spent "training" or "preparing" whatever you may call it and that left him with that 10% which was the most effective and powerful time spent by any human ever, declaring the most amazing message to ever reach the ears of man. It only makes sense to follow such a system. Of course we are not all provided with such a great message to share are we? ACTUALLY we are, not all of us realize it, and not all of us want to believe it, and not all of us live our lives according to that glorious message that has so easily slipped our minds so many times.

On the serious side, I would like to once again remind you and myself, because I suppose we all need reminding from time to time, that I am planning on doing just that. But that doesn't mean do only one form of training for 90% of your life, that surely is NOT what Jesus did instead arrange and prioritize the things that will best allow you to accomplish the goals that have been given to you which of course we have all been given in unity to accomplish. Each of us has a different spin, and technique capable of communicating the same message.

Just like a good ol' fashion "till next time"

----More Later----
- Devin Jump

My Free Association.

2007-10-07T11:05:00.001-07:00

You want a deeper look into my mind, into my soul, this is one and a half minutes of free association.

What are thoughts what are words what are these great mysteries we remain what of the past what of things left unchanged what of regret what of the fears or hopes of the future what of tomorrow what of yesterday what of the broad span of the universe what of time in general what of the soul what of the body what of the mind what of all three together working as one what of skin what of the grave what of the sky what of the grass what of the lions what of the hawks what of the sports that people play what of music what of clocks what of desks what of the mechanisms that help us do the things we do on a daily basis what of cars what of the environment what of our health what of breakfast what of food what of the way that the things that we eat convert into the cells that make up our body what of the miracle of life what of the breeze what of the unseen things what of the things we see but do not believe what of the things that we do not see but still believe what of irrationality what of common thought and general consensus on things that are known or believed what of God what of the world what of other wolds with potential life what of the galaxies what of the dinosaurs what of the flying creatures that will never again be seen what of clones what of endless life what of the discoveries and technologies that the future holds what of nothing what of it all what of the grand what of the small what of you what of me what of eyes what of hearing what of the senses what of pain what of hurt what of healing what of miracles what of tragedies what of laughter what of tears.

coffee shop ideas

2007-07-17T06:00:00.000-07:00

dish bin for customers, on the daily special's a location for customer rating of drink thumbs up thumbs down, frequent drinker's card, on 100th drink a 1 percent discount, 2000th drink is final cap for percentage discounts, chai tea w/ ice cream/gilato, organic food opportunities for pastries and sandwiches.... and I have more but this is just for now...

New game idea for SC

2007-07-13T12:52:00.000-07:00

Ok ... King of the mountain ... reg ffa game... on a money map with center open... first person with 200 psi at center of the map wins ... who's with me?

Let's see if we can get this changed to accepted.

2007-06-26T12:17:00.000-07:00

Application Data

Requested Enrollment Date:	Fall Semester 2007
Application Type:	Graduate (GSU)
Application Status:	Decision Made
Decision:	Admission Not Approved
Degree:	Master of Science
College:	College of Education
Major:	PROFESSIONAL COUNSELING

Inspiration.

2007-06-22T11:30:00.000-07:00

So I happen to be in search of some type of inspiration for more material for my book I have the outline, but I am sometimes discouraged with adding bulk. I am not always the most verbose, most of the time I am very brief and to the point. Music indeed happens to be a great catalyst for me... so I'm listening to some ambient beats to chill my nerves.

MIX ME, Fix me.

2007-06-09T22:23:00.000-07:00

So I have found some music as of recent which I have taken a great liking to. Brand New, whom has released an album as of November 21st. My favorite album is Deja Entendu however this album seems quite impressive as well. I have listened to it as a teenage girl may idolize Elvis in days of old or, Bon Jovi, or maybe even someone such as Ashlee Simpson. I have played a song Okay I believe you but my tommy gun don't at least, wait for it .... well probably over fifty times over the past two or three weeks. Today I heard their song Jesus Christ for the first time, and took the liberty to watch every youtube fan video made, I think 4 .... for now. I do not know of their affiliation and placement of their beliefs and followings, however they seem to be a clean band and I enjoy them both musically, in an instrumental sense, and lyrically. I will soon post some lyrics that have been whispering in the back of my mind, however remote that place is. So this post is truely of mixed up feelings and not just of my musical taste of these days. Let me speak to 10N311N355 of which creeps at every corner, it is more than just a great stalker, it is something of a temptress. This individual if that is what he is to be called does indeed come to me on a daily and nightly basis to whisper to me and let me know of the people whom alledgedly do not care about me. Alienating them from my lives in this intricate plan is not my intention. To those of you whose eyes meet with these words, these are indeed for you. These words are definitely for all of you whom I care about, but have entered into a classification of obsolete of sorts, and you should know that this has happened not as a result of my feelings for you, nor because of your actions, but because I have accepted some of the shadows of deception which has come from him whom I call 10.3.3 as referenced above. You read these words with a chuckle in your inner parts, not to be shared with anyone around you because you are not sure whether this is a laughing matter, the only laughing matter is my exuberant use of cryptic language. Vagueness is my closest friend in the realm of the written world. Vagueness fuels my soul, for this reason my greatest inability is to effectively accomplish large academic written pursuits. I have my insecurities when thinking of these distances from me achieving the things which I have set out to do, something however presses me to continue. these words somehow never fall into an abyss of the world wide web but are soaked by someone's eyes at some point beyond my own which take great delight and pride in what they see as they come into existance. The days are quickly drawing near of a decision that will be made of me and as I have been informed I am academically worthy of graduate studies, and as I heard these words from a man who has been teaching for 40+ years, and deciding should be part of graduate studies for some amount of time, I was greatly prided in my accomplishments. I have had some recent torn emotions in regards to life, and social interaction. I have been very much involved on a regular basis with something called Second Life. It has presented much thought for me in what types of ways I can interact with different people who are so readily available. All the while my real life, of which requires physical activity is melting. Salvador Dali, is not a person I have personally known, nor someone I had the oppurtunity to meet, however his paintings specifically his melting clocks painting reminds me of my own time being spent at the present time. I have been working, however have not yet received any compensation for my work, this is a matter waiting to be dealt with in time, which I am patient to wait. I have the knowledge that I have made it through undergraduate studies unscathed from the word loan. The oddest piece in regards to this is the dubious nature to whether I actually could remain so unscathed even through my graduate studies. I would have to come up with two thousand dollars each semester, which to some is more than they would like to think about, however it is feasible with a correct income. The program which I am embarking upon is a difficult path to begin, however I am ready and willing to fight all the way through for success and accomplish all tasks at hand. I write these words as well just as a quick reminder whether I have mentioned it previously or not, for those people who do not quite have people that jump at the chance to involve them in their lives. I actually ask, almost to the degree of beg, people to keep me in mind when they have something planned. I am very upfront to let people know that I am ready to hang out and be there when they have a plan. The opposite never worked either. Here is the dillemma, I can not ask people to hang out and additionally not ask people to notify me about anything, I have tried this and it does not foster a great environment of healthy social interaction, indeed there is none. If I ask people to go places and hang out, and do not ask them to let me know of when they have something planned, I am being one sided, however occasionally they will join, but rarely. If I ask people to inform me of when they are doing something, and do not offer them any oppurtunities to hang out with me, then my options are placed in their hands, and I am AlMoSt NeVeR invited. If I do both I am seen as pushy and too much of an enthusiast, I have tried all. I would like to know how it is that people whom get to know me "eventually" like me for who I am and what type of person I can be in a personal and group setting however I have the inability or rather incredibly handicapped ability to accomplish friendship with people whome are at first getting to know me. Superficiality is not my pattern nor my desire. I choose to be open with people and freely allow the reciprocity of such an attitude. I shall be open and wish the same. Friends where are you? miles away? not you... where are you Oh new friends whom I am to meet? Let me assure you I am real, I am honest, and I am a man of integrity, it can be easily accounted for. I shall embark upon my mission of coffee shop community building 1.0... This story is not over. You have yet to hear even half ... this is just a spoonfull of a sample of what is to come. You think you have had enough? You don't know what having it is. I can bring it, and I will. You want more, you've made it this far? Let me know if that is the case.

I Devin hereby announce...

2007-05-30T23:15:00.000-07:00

I would like to know who would read a book, but not just read purchase a book written by Devin Jump. The same question if the book was written by Dr. Jump. Just a curiosity of mine...

I am going to be writing this summer, and beginning to truly compile some of the things I have written over the past 4 or so years... I would enjoy some type of encouragement, if you could offer some that would be great...

That is all for tonight.

A plea for prayer

2007-04-12T07:04:00.000-07:00

I have observed with great attention to selflessness that I am not the only person whom lives in this world and has problems, and others are facing much greater struggles. I cannot focus on their problems even though they trouble me at times. I have the inability to grasp any of my future goals as far as how I will walk or run to them, I do not understand my abilities to achieve all the things which are ahead of me. Therefore because of all of the aspects of which I am unsure, I have become a doubter of my goals. I have a tremendous hurdle to leap and my ability to do so must be facilitated by the Holy Spirit enabling me to accomplish the things I know I must do. As my desires change I must press on for the long term goals.

Grips of time

2007-03-07T05:55:00.000-08:00

Why must I allow the pain of time passing by to get to me so? The issue of lost opportunity and not taking advantage of the time that we have been given is one of the saddest issues we have to deal with...

Nothing will wake me from this slumber
I see the horizon the end of me
It's in a picture of the sea
It haunts me and draws me near
I know that one day I'll walk onto the pier
For now I play on the boardwalk
While time sits back waiting for its knock
So much to do I grow blind to the limit of time
And my life simply becomes a constant rhyme
Replicating duplicating patterning and in a rut
Roaming around playing games and putt putt
I pray for the day where I seek the goal
Look back at just how much time stole

teh sprekin

2007-03-07T05:18:00.000-08:00

In the realm of language and reality, and social formalities of speaking and writing in forms that are distinguishable and also in relation to academia, what is acceptable? Even more what is capable of being understood. Harvard has performed studies in relation to word recognition and while the following rdows aym tno eb stidngihbsaleui there is a chance you might understand what those words are... through context... However the following wrdos are idened cpalbae of bineg udnotsreod because they have been tested over a broad range of English readers and for some reason when any word is written while remaining the first and last letters we can read over the word just as quickly as otherwise based on our memory and knowledge of the language... This obviously means that we cannot write in this way to early learners. Just as we cannot use words such as prestidigitation with 2nd graders... A form of speech has evolved out of the gaming arena which is both fun and addictive to involve oneself in... WOOT also seen as W00T We Owned the Other Team... pwn is teh own ... teh is an emphatic of the... allowing such evolution of language will add to the dynamic qualities of understanding such things as emphases.... exchanging numbers where fitting is also a very fun and common practice among the game/Leet aka 1337 speakers... a comparison of letters in my opinion should appear as follows...

A = 4 ///////G = 0 , 6 , 9 ///M = 3 ///////S = 5 /////Y = 4 , 7
a = 6 ///////g = 9 /////////m = 3 ///////s = 5 //////y = 4 , 7
B = 8 ///////H = 11 , 8 /////N = 2 , 8 /////T = 7 /////Z = 2
b = 6 ///////h = 8 , 4 ///////n = 2 ////////t = 7 //////z = 2
C = 0 , 6 ////I = 1 //////////O = 0 ///////U = 0
c = 0 , 6 /////i = 1 //////////o = 0 ////////u = 0
D = 0 ///////J = 1 , 5 ///////P = 2 , 4 , 9 ///V = 11
d = 0 ///////j = 1 , 5 ////////p = 2 , 4 , 9 ///v = 11
E = 3 ///////K = 8 /////////Q = 02 ///////W = 3
e = 9 ////////k = 8 /////////q = 9 ////////w = 3
F = 4 , 7 /////L = 1 /////////R = 12 ///////X = 8
f = 1 , 4 , 7 ///l = 1 //////////r = 2 /////////x = 8

Love 1.2

2007-02-15T06:02:00.000-08:00

Sweet soft slow sway
what wondrous
how happy heart
falling from flying far
lifted load
incredible irreplaceable
peaceful part.

Higher Thought 1.0

2007-02-08T07:40:00.000-08:00

Whether it be higher thought or lower thought maybe even crazy talk I will share a small bit of my thoughts on ... ontology and origin. Here is a thought I was sharing a couple of weeks ago. Where I find compassion for those who believe in an infinitely recurring universe that repeats itself over and over again. I am not actually holding to this position I just understand it a bit. Consider... God, then man... God always, man His creation only part of always... a small fragment of that which we call eternity. If man is here in this small and insignificant section of infinite what for... My thoughts lead me to two more areas. The spirits of man in Heaven once the earth and man has passed away... Either infinite amounts of time passes by and Man is forgotten and the wondrous acts of God pass away... Or memory is also infinite and the impact is just significant enough to impact the actions and significance of life as spirits living in communion and out of communion with and without God. These are the two of the possibilities which I have concluded. Pray tell any suggestions related to the paradigm I am working from.

Love 1.1

2007-02-08T07:29:00.000-08:00

Words are very much inadequate for love, this is the reason I believe why God took actions to display His love for us. I do not believe that this is something that God was required to do. I believe it was a great action of love on His part to let us know just how close He is to us. Woe to those that summarize God as confined to the word of Love. God is Love, however we cannot say anything such as God is nothing more than a loving creator who sent His son to die for us to have fellowship with us for eternity. Nothing of the sort is true, not only are our understandings of such things limited in such an inadequate way God is a whole lot more than Love. God is more than words. Love is something more than words. These things that we experience in life that cannot be explained away or boxed up and prefabbed for mass prod. are wonderful and evidence of the grandness of even our own limitations as created beings. We however have incredible untapped resources and abilities which some come to understand and some do not. That is all for now. -DR JUMP

a little ration

2007-02-05T06:32:00.000-08:00

Wondrous Wispiness with Whimsical Wallowing while Walking

Love 1.0

2007-02-05T06:08:00.000-08:00

Peace that overwhelmeth
I speak not from superficialities
My heart sees what my eyes do not
Evidence provides a soft cushion
But God knows the path ahead
Unexpected wonderstruck
Happiness consumes me
If only no constraints of time
There be some way to slow life
I'd take each day and make it a year
Yet still a moment with one who's close
Significance of words are so strong
Actions speak louder than a tone
Today I speak of great melody
I wait and wonder when
Hope not for the times of storm
Knowing they will come I stand strong
Prepare myself for the greatest winds and rain
I'll be strong for who may choose to seek shelter
Patience be mine it is my greatest prayer
As many strong have fallen aside
I will stay and remain
No man shall move this rock
This rock on which I stand and hold to
Jesus is the solid the one whom I cannot ignore
He has made Himself known to me daily
The one who is my eternal peace
I shall make myself His
In deed and duty follow Him
Not one thing shall steal me away
Praise the Father Son and Holy Spirit
Bringing peace with each day with each moment
Though my mind is simple and weak
My guidance is from above

L to the 1 to the lin (not Chinese) to the ess

2007-01-23T20:35:00.000-08:00

Constant and sporadic...
Predominant and rampant are the chills...
A life a day in my shoe's without thrills...
Tears much to tragic...
Held back with cosmic force...
I face each day with hopes and fears...
I tire out my bones and gears...
I clear my mind without remorse...
But the memories return...
Like a picture from the attic...
Sitting there all static...
Once you take the dust to burn...
The pain remains for a while...
Until again the dust builds up...
These tears won't fill a cup...
There sitting back waiting for a smile...
One face so great is all it takes...
A soul of concordance is around the bend...
Just true love to transcend...
A world of beauty grander than a thousand lakes...

Onward henceforth...

2007-01-09T21:13:00.000-08:00

In an English accent

And their thoughts came tumbling upon them, little did they know that today was the day of their reckoning either that or just renaissance. It was a great and blue day and a little less cold than they both desired and for the time of the season, but it was a cheerful day. Unfortunately the cheerful weather which under normal circumstances these days would bring a smile to one's face these young minds were not so obliged to follow the patterns of natural life. Thoughts had come to them in a fashion of doom, which of course is not a fashion at all and this is what caused them such a worrisome state. If only we knew what to do with our future they thought to themselves. If only we had the answers and the assuredness that each day would be taken care of, and peril was not such a thing to be on our minds. They thought of the words they had heard by their parents on a regular basis, "not even the lilies in the field need worry about whether they will be watered or taken care of." This always brought such peace to them and their thoughts it was silly though and they had let go of such foolish thought. There was absolutely no way that things were just so easy that they need not worry about tomorrow. There were obligations in life, bills, work, and even a social life that they must be attentive to, and let's not forget they thought we needn't forget ourselves. No in life things are not so simple as we sit back and think on our lives. Then one wonders, who is it in life that is happiest is it the man that sits back and never worries and misses some bills is dirty on occasion and never goes out on the town, or is it the one who organizes every facet and caveat of their life paying great and ardent care to what they will do each day who they will see and what they will say. These are mysteries which may not ever be unfolded, but we think on them on occasion. Who are they you may be asking they are one mind, body and soul. They are the one's who make up the nefesh chaya. Living thing. Do not bother yourself with understanding specifically what is taking place here. This is a tool a sandbox, and breeding ground even for the spark of creativity. Where inspiration is led by desperation. Combinations aren't always so beautiful and ideal. In a life where there is great mystery and confusion our worries creep around us like a vicious plague or rabid dog. Hope happens to always be present whether we see it or not. Onward we, I press on to the next day where new life and hope surround me blue skies or gray one's it won't change what is permanent. The things which I forget just as many before me have forgotten are not gone only ready and waiting. Waiting for remembrance, for something more, for what they deserve, for just a piece of what they have given us. I'm there I see those things, I'm on the road to repayment, I'm just thankful that my job has already been completed.